We're a week into school for the big two and Sarah began preschool on Tuesday. I have to say, I'm yelling a lot less. At least while they're gone and it's just me and Jason. Which makes me wonder lots of things - did we have too many kids? (Why did we have more than one???) Am I really suited to the SAHM thing? (I really like the SAH part, it's the M I struggle with) I wonder how each of them will turn out, are they getting enough attention individually from us? Will this all blow up in our face when they become teenagers? God help us.
**********************************************Speaking of Sarah, my Beauty turns 4 in almost a month. While E&W were having their piano lessons, I took Sarah to the library in town, just the two of us - I cannot believe how big she's gotten, it really feels like her babyhood has just sort of blended with Jason's, which I guess it really has - and I asked her on the way what she might like to have for her birthday. Given that we'd just celebrated William's, I was expecting something different from her response: Sarah would like love and a kiss for her birthday. And a hug. And she would like us all to have a zhu zhu pet of our own, and she would like a tiny toy house. Like as-big-as-her-hand tiny. Sarah would also like to have cheesecake for her birthday (a girl after Mommy's heart!) Her answers made my heart sing, and gave me a brief sense that maybe things will turn out alright after all.
better to do!(Pay no attention to the fact that you can't even SEE my dining room table with all the stuff piled on it, I haven't put last year's school papers away yet, or that the cross-stitch I bought when Jason was born almost 3.years.ago. is sitting in a bag, barely started, awaiting my attention. And my 'craft' table is covered in mending and half-finished crap. I guess I'm putting all that off because they feel like chores, whereas the blog is all about ME! Me me me me me me me me :) Or rather, it's about me AND them, but I'm the one that gets the feedback and gratification that maybe someone relates to the guts I spill here and either can empathize or laugh. Anyway. I'm trying some things, messing around with layouts, looking for a new 'me' on the blog. And of course, I want to do it myself - because obviously, I have nothing better to do, right? Yeah, I didn't think so either. This might take a while. In the meantime, if you have any opinions about ads, number of columns, size of pictures (is bigger better? do you just click the pic if you want more detail?) or anything else you'd like to see/don't want to see anymore feel free to leave your thoughts in the comments. Thanks!
Harried Mom OUT :)